Life At A Cross Road!

I think most people would consider what I have been thinking about as a form of mid-life crisis, however 30 is not even close to my mid-life because I plan on living much longer than 60! I also don't really consider it a crisis either it is more of a cross road meaning I don't really know which direction to go because I want to go all directions!!

So I have been stuck in this thought that I started my life too late. Because of everything I have been through in the past few years I have made all these amazing discoveries about what I can actually do. I started making a list of everything I would like to at least try if not do on a regular basis. Here is the list:

Kayaking (both whitewater and sea/lake)
sky diving
skiing/snowboarding
Water Skiing
Zip-lining
Parasailing
Sailing
Backing packing through the mountains (No decisions on which mountain/s)
triathlons
half/full marathon
variety of road races

I am sure the list will just continue to get longer. But here is why I am at a cross road. First off I would really like to be able to have kayaking and skiing/snowboarding as a regular activity. However just thinking about how long it would take me to slowly buy all of the equipment for one or both is enough to make me turn and run away. Second learning both to begin with means I need lessons. I am ok with taking lessons for these as an adult. I can even begin to wrap my brain around the amount of money this has the potential to cost.

The reason I am at a cross road is time. Here I am 30 years old, which is by no means old but I feel like most of the things I want to start doing most people start doing when they are teenagers. Especially taking to people that do these things regularly or even as profession they started when they were very young.

So even though I am 30 I also know you are never too old to learn something new and do what you want. The reason I am so concerned with time or rather the timing is because at this point in my life I should be focusing more on "starting" my life in the sense of family. Someone recently asked if having children was even on my redar because I seemed to be having so much fun traveling, doing races, trying new adventures, etc. I know they meant it as an observation or even more as a positive comment but some how it made me feel like I was missing something or making the wrong desicion at this point in my life.

This would be the reason I am at a cross road. I am ultimately going to continue to try and do everything but I know I will have to make a choice for one eventually at least for some time and then these two world will eventually be able to co-exist agin.

I will gladly accept suggestions from anyone who has them about how to do everything haha!

HAWMC Day 27: How to title my life?

Today's Day 27 task for WEGO Health's Health Activist Writer's Challenge is to think about 5 working book titles for my life.

I have to say that the first one that came to mind was a title that is already being used 'A Series of Unfortunate Events' but since that is already taken I will have to go back to the drawing board.

1.) Aforetime - Ironically enough a friend of mine has been sick and we started writing a word of the day on the board in her hospital room. Today's word is Aforetime which I find would be a very fitting title for a book. It means in earlier times, which let's face it if you are writing a biography it will always be about past experiences.

2.)Cancerology - Since pretty much any word including "ology" means to study something this would be very fitting to depict the lymphoma part of my life. It has honestly made me learn and study things that I never thought I would ever want to or need to. It would be a good way to share information as well as experiences.

3.)Skinny person stuck inside a fat persons body - This would be useful to talk about both my pre-cancer self as well as my post-cancer self. Not to mention all the things I wanted to do but that my body just wouldn't let me. It would be more of a comparison in lifestyle. But again would be a great way to share information and hopefully motivate and inspire others in similar situations.

4.)Is There Life After Cancer? - I think this would be a good way to share my life of recovery after lymphoma. There are so many aspects involved instead of having it's own chapter in a book it really does need it's own book. Through self realizations, services offered through many different organizations, friend and family support/influences. etc

I tried to think of one more but I can only think of four. As much as I would love to some day write one of these into a real book but I am a terrible writer if you all haven't figured that out from reading my blog!